Category: Finding your purpose

Finding my purpose – Confirmation

Back home in California, my Kerala experience felt surreal. In the blazing California sun and the hardness of concrete everywhere, thoughts of soft rustling coconut palms, the thundering ocean feathering to delicate lace, and sudden crazy insights by the beach, seemed bizarre.

Is my life purpose really helping more Americans find authentic Ayurveda? I questioned and doubted as I put my suitcases away.

I went to backyard and stood among the ancient Figs. I feel calm around trees. I am soothed especially by the play of sunlight on the leaves.

Taking people back to the retreat, restoring health, healing the sick, making Ayurveda as common as string cheese were thoughts that kept coming. I noticed something sticking out of the dead leaves and broken stuff the previous tenants had left behind.

I dug in with both hands and this is what found.

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Broken wooden man, awaits a healing transformative journey.

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Resurrected and waiting for the shower to warm up.

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I believe I can fly ! I believe I can touch the sky !

I would take this as a confirmation.

Do you have a story about how you arrived at your purpose ? Please share. Blessings !

Finding my purpose – Revelation !

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Tibetan buddhism believes water bodies have benign spirits that aid us.

The next day, I dragged my tired body to the pristine beach behind the retreat. My mind and my body felt like a human Chrysalis jelly. I felt unable to do the simplest of tasks, attend to my daughter, eat a meal or have a conversation.

My mind was abuzz, my foundations were shaking. I had not regularly meditated in a while. I must meditate and quiet my mind was all I could think. I heard the soft voice of my spiritual guide urging me on.

Be kind to yourself, sit and see for what it is.

I spent most of the morning walking and sitting in meditation. The storm of thoughts swept me up and I gently pulled back to my breath. Then again, the torrent of thoughts and again, the coming back to my breath. A losing battle, I couldn’t help thinking dejectedly and tried walking meditation instead. It felt good for my feet to crunch over hard pieces of shells, rough bark and soft, pulpy seaweed, washed in by the night’s storm. I walked over the roughest paths strewn with beach debris, not caring if there were any shards of glass hidden.I needed to feel my body’s sensations, even if it was pain, so I could stop feeling my mental anguish.

Exhausted, but calm by a few degrees, I sat to give thanks to the Universe. The sea which looked rough and menacing when I started my meditation, looked calm and friendly now. I was hypnotized by how the soft foam spread its lace over the sand, over and over again.

A thought came to me saying, I have been a rudderless, aimless boat all my life going from one fancy to another.

I clearly heard a strong voice from within me counter that thought.

“No! You are a ferry!”

In that moment, all was clear. My mission lay before me.

Find people who need healing and ferry them to Kerala for their transformation. Simple. Done.

I would love to hear how you arrived at your calling. Leave a comment or send an email. Blessings !

Finding my purpose – Intuition strikes!

Life's purpose.

Often great clarity comes during the quiet hours.

In this world, there are those who know, very early, what they want to do with their lives, and then there are those, like me, who flit from one fancy to another. I have been putting myself to good use, sometimes making money and sometimes friends, by doing everything that came my way and having a good time at it. But a hunger for a calling remained.

As I recovered from my near death experience during child birth in 2010, the yearning turned to an urgent seeking. I threw myself at every opportunity that came my way. I meditated and prayed for clarity. None came.

A few days into my intense Panchakarma (Ayurvedic detoxification and cleansing that restores the body and mind to optimal health) I lay tossing in bed. The thoughts of my experience from three years ago kept coming to me (please read blog post ‘Finding my purpose – How it all started’). They were so strong, I had to leave my bed and wander the darkness like a possessed creature.

As I crawled back in bed, I noticed the picture above my bed. The large caption read something like:

“All incidents in your life are connected, everything happens for a reason. All is revealed in their correct sequence of space and time”

It hit me that in some mysterious way, I had been sent to Kerala, on my own transformative journey by the will or the narrative of this young British man I had never met. I too was a wandering soul, unable to find my place in the world. I had finally come home from where I could launch back into life. A real, vibrant life, not the one I was living.

I was weeping tears of gratitude as I emailed my thank you to my ex-hostess from the rural bed and breakfast (No doubt she thinks I am deranged). I was also crying in gratefulness to the employees at the retreat, who had touched me with their generous affection and complete acceptance.

I felt it was my duty to give them thanks on behalf of all those who come to Kerala and find themselves transformed by the simple Keralan hearts.That is exactly what I did for the next ten days. I hugged, kissed, sang and wept with the employees at the retreat at every opportunity.

Disclaimer: There are lovely,lovely people in Kerala and then there are the perverts,lotharios,criminals and such. Go for the shy and retiring ones, the ones who hide behind others and smile at you. Watch out when someone approaches you boldly and seems quite well versed in charming your pants off. They could be serial offenders who abuse tourists for a living.

Have you been to Kerala and found yourself changed for the better? Do you go back often because you find something there that speaks to your soul ? I would love to read your experience.

Finding my purpose – How it all started.

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My purpose takes seed in a place not unlike this.

It all started three years ago, on a beautiful sunny British morning. I crossed a swathe of green dotted with fluffy sheep and bobbing clover, to a rural bed and breakfast.

The moment I stepped into the village, sad news of bereavement in the hostess’s family was conveyed. While I had lunch at the local pub, unknown to me, the hostess and her mother, observed me from a private corner. On the way to the restroom, I noticed the pair, looking at me with large, tear filled eyes. They smiled and radiated affection.

The locals sure are friendly, I thought.

When I got back to the table, my husband got the message that we could check-in as soon as we were ready, we would be no problem.

I arrived at the cottage and instantly recognized the kind lady from the pub as our hostess. The deceased, the hostess’s brother, was fond of India, she said. She saw it as a good sign that I was there, while they mourned and celebrated his short life. I was deeply moved to further discover that the brother had a special connection to Kerala and its people.

I heard the story of how the time spent in Kerala, had been transformative for this young man. He finally found his place in the world and had come back to his family, a completely changed man. He took charge of his father’s businesses and turned them profitable. Sadly, he never overcame his smoking and excess weight.

As a Keralite, I am aware that we only travel to places we can make money at, never to obscure British villages. I wondered what I was doing there at such an important occasion in these lovely people’s lives. I believed my role was to console which I did awkwardly, having never known the weight of such a loss.

The incident stayed with me as an important signpost for things to come, I knew not what. Please read the next blog post to see how this was the beginning.

Have you such an incident to share? Something that defied comprehension and then it all came together, many years later? Please share.

Call me Salila.

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Me among my Fig trees in sunny California.

A few weeks ago- never mind how long precisely- having little or nothing to lose, and nothing particular to interest me, I thought I would try a bit of Ayurveda and see what that 5000 year old ‘Science of life’ was all about.

That was then, this is now.

Still a mother to a five year old but also an Expedition Leader in the making. Seeking my original gang of eight, to fly to God’s own country (Kerala, India), for a fourteen day natural cleanse of the damp, drizzly November in your soul and your body, before the year 2015 is out.

With a flourish Cato throws himself upon his sword; I quietly take to this blog.

This blog will detail the experience of an intense Panchakarma (Ayurveda detoxification) and leave you clear in your purpose, whatever that may be. This blog will prepare you to go forward, if that is what you plan. You will have an idea about your prakriti, your doshas out of balance, and what you can do now to help jump start the healing, before you even check into an Ayurvedic facility.

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